So this cosplay experiment is over...

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Maybe I'll draw sometime again. But the last year had been emotional stress. I'm in the middle of depression again and Idk when I'll post something new. I don't wanna cosplay anymore. The sewing machine just stands there and my Lolita fashion hat and headpiece isn't done since september 2013. *scratches head*
I am selling my Cosplays and a lot of my Manga and Anime stuff recently. I guess it's to clean out old ghosts and get less stuff to carry in case of next moving. (-but this time in my area)
So yeah. I am just too shy running around a con in my cosplay etc. It just isn't fun.
*shakes it off*

I kinda feel like I wanna draw and see how it turns out, knowing I can do better but I am kinda out of fuel.
Recharging will take a while. Again. I feel like I wanna draw my own characters again. I brought them to life at the age of 14 and worked on the storyline ever since. I love Fantasy, and so I have a magical girl story, as well as my other one which I sent to Carlsen when I was 18- and people like Robert Labs and Christina Plaka started to get published. (omg Manga from Germany. <.< was the case that time.) But they kinda liked my story-just not my shitty anatomy (It was worse than today... orz). Maybe I find the fantasy, energy and strength in myself again to continue anything.
Because it never turned out to be good enough.

So I really wanna draw now if I feel like it and are smiling again. - Not just working on a project.
Trying hard to finish it with my best effort, - but with love.
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It's sad to hear/read that you are stalling everything.
I know how hard it is to do anything at all in a phase...

What I wish you would do is following: please do anything to get better! If it means to cut of D.A. it's that. If it means to seek a doctor and take pills, your choice.
please do anything to get energy through whatever activity you like. Some recommend going for walks daily. This would be good to take in sunlight, it helps a bit.
You might as well consider if you are introverted, some food gets introverted people down too (that would be carbohydrates. an upper is broccoli. really, it works).

It is not important what other people think, it's important to think of yourself highly. You are alive, you are the best in 6 million already! (you won the race to the egg!)
Now heads up! take a walk, you are here and you are here to stay! (look out for some greenery, a park maybe, nature is better for recovering)

reading tips:
susan cain, quiet.
Marti Olsen Laney The Introvert Advantage
david allen: getting things done
(everything available in german, too)

taking own advice*gulp* is never easy...